Are you ready for an encounter with God ? - 2
Whilst at University in the late 70's I began an intense search to
realize my nivana,
to achieve self-actualisation.
I experimented with any form of drugs that I could procure,
and whilst staying at a student accommodation College,
I became fascinated with LSD and Magic Mushrooms.
For me taking these mind altering drugs
was not just a matter of getting high,
as I was having profound spiritual experiences.
At one stage I was on the beach at nightime
with a full moon reflecting on the water.
The effect of the LSD
enabled me to have the sensation that I was melting into the moonlight.
I became one with the light of the moon,
and as I merged with this light
I experienced God in a tangible way.
However, later that evening in the early morning hours
that heavenly experience quickly turned into hell.
I found myself being drawn downwards into
a dark and terrifying gloom.
A few days later after I had recovered from this horror
I realized that it had left me with a slight condition of anxiety.
If I was in a lecture or tutorial at university,
I bagan to feel a mild nervousness for no apparent reason.
I would walk into a class completely calm,
and then suddenly have feelings of anxiety.
I had been in the same class previously without
any negative emotions.
I thought I would shake it off in a few weeks,
as I only experienced this apprehension at sporadic intervals
in the classroom.
But it didn't go away,
so I began to search for a spiritual solution.
I tried every type of spiritual experience,
and all kinds of religions.
One day I was being prayed for by Reiki Masters ,
and the next day doing meditation exercises with the Ananda Marga.
Every day I would be reading volumes on
psychology, anthropology and philosophy.
I wasn't looking for a doctrine,
I was searching for a cure for my existential experience.
During this search I found myself at a Christian house meeting,
at which the leader asked me if I wanted to pray.
Of course I said yes because I wanted to try everything spiritual,
but I had no idea what I was praying.
Wow ! This was different ,
I immediately felt an overwhelming presence.
The sensation of love and light was incredible,
and I instinctively knew that I had found what I was looking for !
The nervous condition evaporated
as I accepted Jesus Christ
and began to fellowship with the Holy Spirit.
In the next Parts of this Series
we will continue through my experiences,
and we will begin an exegesis of the Book of Romans.
Join the conversation on Facebook ,
Christian Leadership College
Copyright - Craig Holme - 2013 .
Whilst at University in the late 70's I began an intense search to
realize my nivana,
to achieve self-actualisation.
I experimented with any form of drugs that I could procure,
and whilst staying at a student accommodation College,
I became fascinated with LSD and Magic Mushrooms.
For me taking these mind altering drugs
was not just a matter of getting high,
as I was having profound spiritual experiences.
At one stage I was on the beach at nightime
with a full moon reflecting on the water.
The effect of the LSD
enabled me to have the sensation that I was melting into the moonlight.
I became one with the light of the moon,
and as I merged with this light
I experienced God in a tangible way.
However, later that evening in the early morning hours
that heavenly experience quickly turned into hell.
I found myself being drawn downwards into
a dark and terrifying gloom.
A few days later after I had recovered from this horror
I realized that it had left me with a slight condition of anxiety.
If I was in a lecture or tutorial at university,
I bagan to feel a mild nervousness for no apparent reason.
I would walk into a class completely calm,
and then suddenly have feelings of anxiety.
I had been in the same class previously without
any negative emotions.
I thought I would shake it off in a few weeks,
as I only experienced this apprehension at sporadic intervals
in the classroom.
But it didn't go away,
so I began to search for a spiritual solution.
I tried every type of spiritual experience,
and all kinds of religions.
One day I was being prayed for by Reiki Masters ,
and the next day doing meditation exercises with the Ananda Marga.
Every day I would be reading volumes on
psychology, anthropology and philosophy.
I wasn't looking for a doctrine,
I was searching for a cure for my existential experience.
During this search I found myself at a Christian house meeting,
at which the leader asked me if I wanted to pray.
Of course I said yes because I wanted to try everything spiritual,
but I had no idea what I was praying.
Wow ! This was different ,
I immediately felt an overwhelming presence.
The sensation of love and light was incredible,
and I instinctively knew that I had found what I was looking for !
The nervous condition evaporated
as I accepted Jesus Christ
and began to fellowship with the Holy Spirit.
In the next Parts of this Series
we will continue through my experiences,
and we will begin an exegesis of the Book of Romans.
Join the conversation on Facebook ,
Christian Leadership College
Copyright - Craig Holme - 2013 .
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